Well, another week...a short one although it felt like a full five work days, is over. I stuffed certificates into envelopes resisting the urge to put sticky notes on the ones of people i know. Yes, when those special studious souls get there certificate for "academic achievement", that envelope was stuffed and labeled by yours truly. I've even made a fair bit of headway into filing for the business offices although it would be nice to start removing files rather than adding new files into already full drawers...
I don't feel like writing extra posts, so here is my confession. You see, many times people wonder why I don't speak up more often or talk a lot. Others wonder why I chat too much...particularly under the influence...of caffeine. But anyways, it seems that my mouth gets me into a lot of trouble with people who are near and dear to me. My parents used to constantly get onto me for a "tone of voice" and other parents described me as sassy. There were some teachers here and there who didn't like my "attitude". My first ex-boyfriend finished a long dead relationship off because of something I said and his sister got a whole lot farther away after that. Before that, a friendship with a lifelong friend was strained. The other ex-boyfriend would probably have the same sort of complaint. My younger brother has forgiven my for my bossy, mean-spiritedness. you get the idea of a general pattern here. it ain't good.
and some people think i'm "sweet-spirited" and such. I don't know what to do though. Apparently I cross the line when giving people a hard time or teasing. Very rarely out of the above instances did I ever mean anything in a mean way. sometimes with my younger bro and maybe a couple of other times. But generally, I was just teasing.
Than again, I'm sitting here musing to myself wondering whether I might be a little too mean when I try to make a point about something regarding someone else. I can be, well, blunt. And it doesn't help that whenever I get mad about something someone else says when teasing or giving me a hard time, every one else laughs and tells me to get over it. This happened(s) quite often within my family. My older sis touched on a few things in the name of teasing....
So, I guess all I can do is say I'm sorry if I've ever given you the reader too much of a hard time and you either chose to not mention it to me or you did. Help me.
Posted by Anna at June 5, 2004 12:31 AM | TrackBack