Closed Doors get discouraging. I know and trust for God to bring me to where he wants me to be career-wise, but having doors closed again and again, and having doors not even open gets frustrating and discouraging. I wonder what's wrong with me? What is screaming "epic fail" on my applications? Am I not doing enough? Am I not trying hard enough? Do I really have to keep applying for positions 45 minutes away and be shut out by them also?
I want to do what I love--math education. Whether it be teaching, or working behind the scenes to develop assessment and curriculum, my love is math education.
I'm doubting myself. I'm scared I'll never get another chance as it seems my career passion slowly slips away.
I know God will encourage me again very soon. I know he's preparing me every moment in every day for that open door. But it doesn't necessarily make me feel any better at the moment.
Posted by Anna at June 2, 2009 11:05 PM | TrackBack