Easier to Run by Linkin Park
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kep locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I I could take all the shame to the grave I would
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
This is a song from Linkin Park's new CD Meteora. After listening to this album several times, a few songs stuck in my mind. This was one of them.
I didn't really understand everything it said until I read the lyrics to it. This song hit me in a way that I never thought a song could. It describes something I have been experiencing in my life recently which, like always, has came back into my life while at home. I have tried to change this part of me (I am determined that it is only a part of my mind that can and will change) and thought I have succeeded at some times. However, I have weak moments--a significantly larger number than at LeTourneau, it seems.
I suppose that everyone has their own "dark" secrets which they don't want anybody to know. None of you know how large a step it is for me to even be writing so ambiguously about it as I am now. I wasn't going to until I listened to the song again and felt compelled to get this out of my system. Maybe someday I will be able to talk about this part of me with people openly. However, for better or worse, right now it is between me and God.
Posted by Randy at June 3, 2003 12:12 AM